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| I am still trying to learn how to cope with making decisions where there is just no good solution, where something will be lost no matter which choice I make. It hurts me, though I'm trying to recognize that I did the best I could, and try to do things better in the future.
Even though I am optimistic, I'm always very hard on myself about the mistakes I made. I tend to punish myself, as if it makes a difference, letting guilt chill my blood. Maybe I think if I feel guilty enough, it'll make something better, as opposed to actually doing something about the problems or mistakes I made.
In the end that is all I can really do.... Either I can ACT or do NOTHING. Those are my options. If there is nothing I can do, I have to try to learn to live with that.
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